life

生活中有许多的无奈，
无奈，因为做不到舍么，
想做一点改变，
却没有得到支持，
反而遇到很多阻拦。
也许，沟通技巧不好吧。。。
后来，就放弃改变了。
过了一时，
别人提出自己当初所提的建议，
这一次，
却得到全场的支持。。。
充满无奈。。。
是自己想得太快，导致别人当时觉得没这个必要？
问题出在哪呢？
哀，
还是沉默是好。。。

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kai hee, you know that it is a trap, but why you still offer yourself to the trap?!
Please dont cheat yourself, you will not only get nothing but also corruption at the end.......
so, stop that..

These feeling AGAIN

These feeling come again,
like an unavoidable storm,
attacking me...

Those feeling,
slowly and gradually degrade
my relationship,
my career,
and even my life.

And owning them,
making me feel inadequate and imperfect.

I must learn,
to overcome it.

Lord,
please help me in this.
I need your guide to overcome this...

无题

比较会说话的人， 永远都会得到别人的关注；

比较会解释的人， 做错事的时候容易得到别人的宽恕；

比较会表达的人， 他的问题永远是大过天。。。

那。。。

那些人呢？

那些，

比较不会说话的人， 往往很少会受到关注；

比较不会解释的人， 做错事的时候往往都被人指指点点；

比较不会表达的人， 他所面对的问题往往都是小事一桩。

在这里不是要抱怨， 只是把自己在生活上所观察到的现象写下来。。。

对于这些“比较不会”的人来说，以属世的眼光， 他们都是吃亏的。

但是在神的眼中，我相信祂不是这样看待的。。。

因为祂是我们最好的朋友， 只有祂才晓得我们内心深处的需要，再依着我们的需要供应我们。

冥冥中他已经为我们预备最美好的道路。现在， 也许看不到，也不明白为舍么，但是圣经已经应许， 凡等候耶和华的，必从新得力，他们必如鹰展翅上腾，奔跑却不困倦，行走却不疲乏（赛40：31）。只要等候，相信，以后就会明白神在当中的旨意。

今日领悟。。。

把自己面对的苦毒与软弱告诉别人不是给自己机会再继续犯罪，

而是要提醒自己不要让自己陷入恶人的网罗。。。

回想一下，

你跟你信得过的人倾诉，那个动机在哪里。。。

若只是让自己舒服，给自己一个欺骗，

那你就错了。。。

因为这样，

你根本不会有成长。。。

Special thanks.........

It's always a good motivation by thinking and keeping the grateful things that i have experienced in my mind.

At first, i am very grateful that God has arranged me studying in USM, the place i grew more mature and experienced more different incidents. From taking important posts in PMVCF to the accident that i have experienced, until the relationship matter (not love matter!) and lastly to my busy final year life......

For sure, in this process I have gone through some doubts but bible aways confirm and comfort me with the promise that God always has His will for all the incidents happened on me and He will always make a way! After all, He want to train me to become more like Him through the process.

Here, I would like to take the advantage in my blog to express my special thank to the people that have motivated or helped me (since it's not too public to say here compare to FB). It may just insignificant to what they have done for them but for me, what they have done exerted a big impact on me.

I would like to thank:

1. CF seniors (especially Sing chan, Tiong ming, carol, seng fung, wang chieng, lui fei, hie ping) who take good care of me after i met the accident.

2. Friends who are always there and pray hard for me during my operation.

3. Prof Nazalan because of this.

4. Lab 318 seniors (especially Kak Sharmini, Kak Shantini, Kak HemaR, Kak leh) who trained me to become a better lab-er.

5. Leonard who lend me his motor and this make my final year life easier and more convenient.

6. My coursemates which coloured and make my uni life interesting.

7. Dr. ARMY who has motivated me in doing my fyp. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

8. Dr. Amirul which at least gave me a chance to do fyp in lab 318...